moments

The more time goes by I am reminded of how it seems over time my life has become somewhat of a series of moments.

Moments that have defined and shaped my life over time. My frist defining moment was when I was 16. I found out my father died from  Alzheimer’s. It’s not something a 16-year-old is usually prepared for. I skipped school that day with my friend Travis and my Mom and Brother found me at home with him.

I remember the first time I looked in a mirror and didn’t recognize myself. I had discovered my life of drugs and everything else had turned me into something I wasn’t. It had taken away my life and changed me forever. I knew then I had to get sober it was just a matter of how and when.

The first time I looked over at Brooke and realized she was it for me, changed me forever. We were at the restaurant we worked at in the “window”. I looked over at her in the middle of a rush and saw that she was the one I was in love with and I was going to build a life with her.

All these moments have either been defined by a series of choices or by just life happening. I grew up faster than most my friends. I lived my life recklessly and brought myself back together. It has all brought me here in this moment where I’m waiting for life to make a decision on whether Brooke gets pregnant or not. For days we tested on this little plastic thing that she pees on to tell us if she was ovulating. Suddenly, that strip turns blue and everything could possibly change for the rest of our lives. The look on her face was priceless. She woke me at 3:30am before she went to work. Her eyes were lit up and it was no surprise that the damn line showed up.